Kinshuk Sunil

I know,
but still I must pretend,
because,
knowing the end,
tells us,
we all must fall

If I,
let it play on my mind,
then perhaps,
I’ll try to escape,
industry and labor
Perhaps,
I’ll sit and wait,
for the moment to come,
and so,
waste the moments gone

Everything that goes up,
gravity pulls it down,
everything that rises,
hence must fall
I have risen,
I have stood proud,
for long, now,
time has played its game,
it all ends now
I will,
forfeit but I wont quit,
I cant,
let it all go along,
be deprived of,
what I possessed
Cruel destiny,
must though,
laugh at me,
I’ll forfeit but I wont quit

Time is flying by,
it all must come to,
an end,
I know,
but still I must pretend,
because,
knowing the end,
tells us,
we all must fall

Walking down these narrow lanes,
all of these memories, make me insane,
I have failed, I have lost,
I know…
But, every time things go wrong,
and i find I am all alone,
when there’s no soul walking with me,
I look up to you

I know, you’ll be there
I see, you with me
I know, you’ll be there
walking, every time, with me

Bringing back those memories,
of the moments i shared with you,
knowing that they wont come back,
the moments gone, are gone,
I know…
but, every time i feel i am alone,
and i find every thing’s changed,
when there’s no single face i know,
I look up to you

I know, you’ll be there
teaching me, how to share
I know, you’ll be there
and thats why
I look up to you

Will you,
just stop, and,
look at me, for a while.
Will you.
open my eyes, and,
help me see, for a while.
Will you,
hold my hands, and,
tell me what, in touch, lies.
Will you,
be with me, and,
teach me life, for a while.

Why cant you be with me,
why cant you help me, be
Why do you need to walk away,
I don’t want to be this one…

Will you,
walk with me, and,
make my journey, worthwhile
Will you,
aid me,
when i need to realize,
what love holds in store,
for me,
and you, forever.
Will you,
say to me, the words,
I have wanted to hear, for ages now.

Why cant you be with me,
why cant you help me, be
Why do you need to walk away,
I don’t want to be this one,
Why cant you be with me,
why cant you help me, be.

I draw a straight line, its first dimension
I add some width, its second dimension
I add due depth, the third dimension
with all the meaning’s associated, the picture’s alive
bouncing and plodding over my mind
in an unseen dimension

I ask some questions, too few answers
I express in symbols, some denominations
I escape the agonies, I cant run away
I am trapped with this picture, its alive
in this world of the shame, trapped
in an unseen dimension

I cant escape this world,
I cant escape the blame,
I am caught in my grave,
this shame is too much to swallow

I drew one line, in first dimension
made it broader, by the second dimension
made it deeper, with the third dimension
this picture’s a part of a whole,
i had failed to see, now i do,
but, I am trapped
in an unseen dimension

I cant escape this world,
I cant escape the blame,
I am caught in my grave,
this shame is too much to swallow

With every puff that i smoke,
a cloud of fume rises in the air,
it builds a castle of my dreams,
I try to catch it in my hands,
and it breaks,
mixing in the air,
it goes away, its lost…

The fume is killing me,
poisoning my breath,
but still I smoke, just,
to see that castle of smoke,
it makes a splendid sight,
to see her face in it,
mixing in the air,
I run after her, but,
it has to be lost in this air,
it goes away, it lost…

I inhale my dreams,
it burns my lungs,
I cant take it anymore,
I loose it,
the fume washes me over,
this smoke is burning my eyes…

Loosing you, is so hard to do,
but, do I have any option,
I stand, watching the clock,
turn into a time bomb,
slowly, second after second,
it sucks, life away from me,
it takes, you away from me,
this fume washes me over,
I am left alone, this fume is gone,
the burning cigarette dies away,
the only burning light, I had,
in this engulfing darkness,
is out

The fume is over,
my puff dies… I cant help it,
I just sit and watch,
as I loose you…
I am a looser, I know,
and I sit, loosing you,
loosing my life…

The stub left in my hand,
is a proof,
its gone,
my only friend, this fume,
has parted,
your face, I saw in it,
is still left in my memories,
imprinted in my mind,
I know,
loosing you, is so hard to do,
but,
do I have any option,
no, not anymore…

Why do you, turn your back,
on me.
Why do you, walk away,
answer me

Why make, loneliness,
my only friend.
Ignorance, of the fact,
that you’ll leave me,
consoles me, but,
I am not an ignorant fool.
I can see you, walking away,
with you, walk away,
my dreams, my
wishes, and my love.
Why do you, take them with you
Answer me

This moment has gone,
my life is parting me,
I can see my soul, leave me.
My shadow, walks away too,
with you.
Why didn’t you, leave it with me
answer me

What is it that you want from me,
What would make you sit with me,
even if only, for a while.
What should I add into me,
I am all, I have given to you,
You took it away and
gave me nothing back.
My memories trap me, and, you
walk away, but why,
Answer me